A few weeks ago a friend asked how I would describe myself, in one word. Without any hesitation, I said “doubtful.” She seemed to find this sad. But the truth is I don’t really mind it. Yes, I am constantly full of doubt, but it can be a positive force in my life. It means making fewer big mistakes, and more apologies when I do make them. Sometimes, though, I wonder what it would be like not to have my doubt. To not be second-guessing everything and imagining the worst possible outcome at all times. To not always being afraid I will say or do the wrong thing.